31.8.09

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reversing my reality. this is a feedback loving blogger, so please leave comments anonymously or as out-and-proud as ellen degeneres, i won't judge you.

my reality has been filled with some shi**y things. there have been amazingly wonderful times don't get me wrong, but more often than not i find myself wandering back to all of the things i wish i could forget.
i don't want to end up like that crazy person we all know that has so much anger towards the people on the block that they don't recognize the obvious beauty of a new flower pushing its face toward the enveloping warmth of the sun--not to get too specific or anything.

i'm trying to write my way out of negativity. that blasted negativity has flown through my veins long enough, i'm turning over a new leaf, and finding something other than nature to use in my analogies.

TODAY'S TOPIC?

i am realizing that its a very basic trust that i don't have.
being on time is a simple act of courtesy. i have complete trust in everyone that they will never be on time.
oh the trust-in-humanity i lack.
i like to think of myself as a very punctual person. i am where i say i'll, be when i say i'll be there. if not, i like to send a text message saying it's taking longer. note: i am not perfect, i don't do this all the time, i just like to think i do.
here we bring in the benefit of the doubt; maybe there are car problems, maybe her phone died, maybe the address was faulty, etc...
or maybe this is just how the person is. i don't trust that my time is as important as you think yours is.
the good ol' golden rule once said treat others as you wish to be treated.

does this mean i have cosmic permission to be a bitch?
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